that people don’t know shit that’s racist.

And I’m horrified and shocked when they say “Also, let me know when we have ‘historically white’ colleges, fraternities, social clubs. Let me know when I can get scholarships just based on the fact that I’m white. Let me know when I can get into a school or program despite being less apt than someone else, just because I’m white. ”

But I also have to remember, I’ve come a long way and learned a lot. I am 80% sure I said some bullshit racist shit like that in high school. But why? Where did I get that from? I’m sure I heard adults joke about white history month. That shit completely fucking baffles me now, but it didn’t always. Why? 

Because I grew up as a white girl; I grew up privileged. There was no one there to say to me “that’s racist” and “this is privilege” and yeah, I understood there were people who had it better off than me and people who had it worse off than me and I sort of understood there was a connection with race and poverty, but I just didn’t GET it. Why? Why is that? I wish I could go back and see that turning point.

I know I wasn’t a hateful person. And I want to blame it all on society but I can’t. It’s my job to make myself a better person and to listen to people and to read and try to understand, and all I can hope is that other people want to do the same. We need to work together to fight racism. 

It’s just very tough and a sticky situation. What is the best way to go forward with someone so frustrating?

am i rambling or not making sense??